But if all my hopes and
all my prayers are to come to this, that you mix up my very words and
thoughts with the promptings of the devil, then I dont know what I
shall do: I dont indeed: itll kill me.
MARGARET. You shouldnt have prayed for me to be enlightened if you
didnt want me to be enlightened. If the truth were known, I suspect
we all want our prayers to be answered only by halves: the agreeable
halves. Your prayer didnt get answered by halves, mother. Youve got
more than you bargained for in the way of enlightenment. I shall
never be the same again. I shall never speak in the old way again.
Ive been set free from this silly little hole of a house and all its
pretences. I know now that I am stronger than you and Papa. I havnt
found that happiness of yours that is within yourself; but Ive found
strength. For good or evil I am set free; and none of the things that
used to hold me can hold me now.
_Knox comes back, unable to bear his suspense._
KNOX. How long more are you going to keep me waiting, Amelia? Do you
think I'm made of iron? Whats the girl done? What are we going to
do?
MRS KNOX. Shes beyond my control, Jo, and beyond yours. I cant even
pray for her now; for I dont know rightly what to pray for.
KNOX. Dont talk nonsense, woman: is this a time for praying? Does
anybody know? Thats what we have to consider now. If only we can
keep it dark, I don't care for anything else.
MARGARET.
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