Through this period, too, my bashfulness in the presence of the
opposite sex increased until it reached the point of absurdity.
When fifteen years old I began to practice coitus inter femora on
my brother and continued it intermittently for about two years.
The experience was disappointing, for I had confidently expected
a great increase of pleasure over masturbation in this act; and
in casting about for some stronger stimulus I recurred to the
forgotten idea of intercourse with animals. I promptly tried to
put the idea to a test, but failed several times, and finally
succeeded, only to find that the result fell far short of my
expectations. Nevertheless I continued the practice irregularly
for about three years--or rather through that part of the three
years that I spent at home, for while I was at school opportunity
for such indulgence was lacking. Long familiarity with the idea
of intercourse with animals had made it impossible for me to feel
the disgust with the practice which it inspires in most people;
and even the perusal of Exodus xxii: 19 failed to make me abandon
it. Firmly as I believed in the Mosaic law the supremacy of the
sexual impulse was complete.
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