From that time to the present I
think I have masturbated an average of ten times per week, and
this is certainly a very conservative estimate; for though up to
my sixteenth year I could seldom produce an orgasm more than once
a day I have often, during the last four or five years, produced
it from four to seven times per day without difficulty and this
for days and even weeks in succession. During these periods of
excessive masturbation very little liquid was ejaculated and the
pleasurable sensations were slight or entirely lacking.
From the time when I began masturbating regularly practically my
whole interest centered in things pertaining to sex. I read the
chapters of the family "doctor book" which treated of sexual
matters; my day-dreams were almost exclusively erotic; I sought
opportunities to talk about sex-relationships with my
schoolmates, with whom I was now slowly getting on better terms;
I collected pictures of nude women, learned a great number of
obscene stories, read such obscene books as I could obtain and
even searched the dictionary for words having a sexual
connotation. Up to my fifteenth year, when ejaculation of semen
began, there was a strong sadistic coloring to my day-dreams.
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